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my insane brain

a blog about my mental health

Mental As Anything

It's been over a year now, but it's still a monumental struggle. There hasn't been a day when I've not thought about her ... not single...

MY LOVE HAS GONE

Friday the 10th of January 2020, will be one of the worst days of my life. My mood matches the weather outside. Rain lashes down like the...

EGGHEADS (2019 OVERVIEW)

This blog has been silent for quite a while, nearly 3 years in fact, which is a great sign, of course. It shows that my mental well-being...

THE TEMPLE (OF DOOM)

The headaches are back. That pulsating, pounding, in the right-hand side of my head, the temple (of doom). It feels like a tumour, as if...

CRYING IN A CAR PARK

There I was, earlier this evening, sitting in my car, in a retail park, counting down the minutes until a dreaded job interview, trying...

THE SUICIDE IN ME

I woke up the other day, and while laying on my side, in my awakening haze, I stared out the bedroom window. The sun was shining, and the...

WILL I EVER BE WHO I USED TO BE?

Welcome to ‘My Insane Brain’, my aptly-titled blog, detailing the day-to-day problems facing a manic depressed, social anxiety suffering,...

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Ryan Sam Turner

my insane brain

a blog about my mental health