Ryan Sam Turner

Friday the 10th of January 2020, will be one of the worst days of my life. My mood matches the weather outside. Rain lashes down like the tears streaming down my face, hard and continuous. And my head pounds, in time with the speed-beating of my mangled heart. My hands shake as I try to write this. The girl whom I loved more than anything, she has left. Without her I am lost. I had made plans in my head, and researched them online, for Valentine’s Day, a mere month away, but

This blog has been silent for quite a while, nearly 3 years in fact, which is a great sign, of course. It shows that my mental well-being has been good. But this entry obviously points to the return of a few issues. However, that subject won’t be the entirety of this post. This past 12 months has seen me have some of the most wonderful experiences of my life, but for some reason, towards the end of the year, my brain decided to reign me in a little bit. ‘You were enjoying you